why is it that i feel like im just counting my days here on earth? why i feel like its not gonna last long for me? why cant i see any progress in my condition? why cant i look at the bright side? why me?
i hate every thing that is happening to me. still love my life, im too young for all of this. i love my family, i love the people around me, i love JT so much that id rather die than to have her suffer the things im having. i hate the pain. i hate the disease and the sickness. i envy the people around me who are planning their wedding, the old folks who lived for years together. i want to experience all of that. i hate the sleepless nights.
if all of this is just psychological, may it all vanish in front of me. i love JT's family like they're my own family. i hate every negative things that are happening to me.
i want to live longer, to have a family, to be with JT.
LORD please heed my plea...
Monday, March 15, 2010
Lord please help
Lord, please give strength to withstand all the trials in my life. Strengthen me physically and emotionally. Be with me always especially now that Im fighting to have a healthy body. Heal all that is not good in me. Cleanse my body and my soul from all sickness, disease and curses that have come into me.
Please help me believe things that are true and help me forsake things which are not. Give me patience which I need most during times of despair and loniless. Also, give patience to all my friends and love ones which listens to my unending complaints about life. My they understand me in downest moments and my they give me all the support I need. Help me also to help myself, for everything starts with me.
Lord, strengthen also my faith and trust in you. For only you can help me reach peace and serenity. Let me feel you loving embrace again....
Please help me believe things that are true and help me forsake things which are not. Give me patience which I need most during times of despair and loniless. Also, give patience to all my friends and love ones which listens to my unending complaints about life. My they understand me in downest moments and my they give me all the support I need. Help me also to help myself, for everything starts with me.
Lord, strengthen also my faith and trust in you. For only you can help me reach peace and serenity. Let me feel you loving embrace again....
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
i hate myself
im still having pains, i was given medications. i want to think positive, i hate myself for entertaining negative thoughts. i hate that i cant think that im going to be well. Lord help me, help me strengthen my faith in you. Help me build up the hope that is remaining in me. I know that you alone Lord can heal me completely. please let me feel your loving embrace. Help me lord to lengthen my patience. help me fix my life and dedicate it to you.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
im starting to hate this!
From the depths I shall wait, in the darkness I shall sit, and then I will feel….feel the cold, dry, emptiness of this place. Once again I am alone, not a voice will I hear, not a thing will I see and no soul shall I sense. I feel left and abandoned like I’m not wanted but what is this that starting to build inside me? Cast off and neglected, I did not feel betrayed because this place has taught me something; I became comfortable because I have grown used to it….
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
lebron a sore loser
He’s just a sore loser. You can’t become a champion if you don’t know how to accept defeat. He has a huge ego and is very classless. Yah, he’s a great player and the MVP for this season but it doesn’t mean he can just walk out without congratulating Dwight Howard and the rest of the Orlando Magic. It only shows that he is not worth the trophy that was given to him. As the league MVP, he should represent the NBA in all aspect. By walking on the Orlando Magic, he disgraced himself and league. He was able to stay in the game when they won the two previous series against Detroit and Atlanta but why not when his team lost? It said a lot on what kind of a person Lebron James is. He’s not a competitor; he’s an egoistic player who doesn’t know how to recognize his limitations and the capability of their opponent. He was very confident after sweeping the two previous series that he thought it will be a walk in park going to the finals. He and his team had gone so complacent that they think they can step on any team on their way to the finals. All of this caused them their chance to meet the Lakers in the finals.
Every action that he did will eventually ruin his credibility as a sportsman. He will not become a winner unless he can take losing like a gentleman. He should be embarrassed more for his unsportsmanlike conduct than the way their season ended.
CLEARLY, HIS JUST A BIG SORE LOSER!!!!!
Every action that he did will eventually ruin his credibility as a sportsman. He will not become a winner unless he can take losing like a gentleman. He should be embarrassed more for his unsportsmanlike conduct than the way their season ended.
CLEARLY, HIS JUST A BIG SORE LOSER!!!!!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Beauty of my JT
According to www.merriam-webster.com beauty is "the quality or aggregate of qualities in a person or thing that gives pleasure to the senses or pleasurably exalts the mind or spirit". A pretty good definition for a word but if you look at it carefully, it is very broad and does not really point you to the exact meaning. I myself have questions about beauty and the basis on how to measure beauty. So I did what most people with too much time to waste, I researched the holy grail of the information, the internet. But it did not give me enough answers to the questions that were bothering me.
And as a person of great knowledge to the subject, I developed my criteria of beauty but looking at the most beautiful lady, for ME, in the world, my beloved girlfriend, JT. First things first, let me start this study of mine by describing how I met my beautiful JT. It all started on a fateful day (just exaggerating) in the office. It was my second day in Manila when I saw her awe inspiring beauty. In an instant I was stuck and I could not forget and get her image off my mind. She was stunningly and out of this world beautiful. And since then I became a slave for her beauty.
Let me now enumerate those qualities she possesses that make her "the most beautiful in the world".
Personality – she has this personality that people tends to gravitate towards her. She has this very likeable aura that you just can't resist. Sometimes I think she speaks in a language that connects directly to the hearts of people around her. She can command an audience and you just can't resist listening to whatever she's going to say. When she speaks the world stops and listens to her.
There are 3 types of Beauty.
· Cuteness – she's one of the perfect example of this. She owns the face of an angel, melts your heart each time you look at her. She has this sweet innocence in her that you just can't deny. At any situation and in any place, she just looks good. "Baby face", that's the way that I can describe it. Her charm is very undeniable. I just can't resist her she captured me. She has very cute hands. I would never forget the day I first held it. We were sitting in a bus and I just can't control the urge to hold her hands. I asked her if I can hold her hands because it was small. But the truth is I just wanted to hold her cute little hands. I got her that time. She also has cute baby fats in her. Lucky for me I get to touch them. The fats in her tummy are just like marsh mallows from heaven. So smooth and so fragile. And her nose, oh her nose, so cute you just want to pinch it. She also has these cute little ears. Those sparkling eyes of her are just so amazing. Feels like she sees right through me. The hair, long, shiny and radiantly black. It also smells so good. Her cheeks reminds of the paintings during the renaissance. You should see her cheeks when she's blushing. And the smile that completes my day.
· Prettiness –prettiness is associated with romantic love and natural feministic qualities. Romantic love? I love her, so she fits. Natural feministic qualities, actually she a little rough than a lady with great poise but ironically that's what makes her so feminine. She maybe wild and rough on the outside but she definitely is a strong and powerful lady on the inside. Ever heard of a song from Billy Joel, "She's Always a Woman"? Basically it describes JT very well; she will always be a woman to me. She bears herself well and she commands respect. She may not wear elegant dresses or fashionable clothes but she still carries with her the composure of a beauty queen.
· Hotness – is the beauty that stimulates sexual desire. According to one article is the type of beauty where the celebrities can be associated with. In short, JT can become a celebrity anytime she wants. She is the epitome of hotness is its raw form. She has the body to die for. Those sexy hips, I really can't describe them. Very soft and smooth skin, more priceless than the porcelain of ancient China. If you're a girl you'd envy her and if you're a man it will stimulate all your sensual fantasies. I don't want to express my fantasies, she might kill me if I do but I'm guilty nonetheless. She has these luscious lips. Makes me want to kiss them every time I had the chance. Oh, the taste is even better I tell you. I've tasted other lips but nothing really compares to sensation of being kissed by my JT. Boobs can become the make or break part of a woman. Mostly guys like girls with big hooters. Hey, I'm not making this up, it is based on research. For JT, ummmm, just judge for yourself. I love my JT. She even had the voice to back it up. Her voice is just the sexiest that I have ever heard. I don't want to emphasize further, this might lead to censored things. I don't want to extend the explanation for this type of beauty. I could go on and on describing how hot and sexy my girlfriend is. I still haven't mention the time when we were on an outing. We were in a pool, my jaw literally drop when I saw her wet in those short shorts and tight blouse of hers. But enough with that, I might not post this at all, I might open up some secrets not to mention my wildest dreams about her.
Overlapping- sometimes type of beauty overlapped each other that you create a new kind of beauty. These are the combinations:
· Exotic Beauty – Hotness + Prettiness
· Exquisite Beauty – Prettiness + Cuteness
· Enchanting Beauty – Cuteness + Hotness
· Goddess Beauty – this category is indeed very rare. You're lucky to have gotten two types of beauty and an amazing feat to possess all of them. But believe me, I have seen a person who possesses them and she's my one and only JT. A sweet and innocent face, the poise and bearing, and the sexiness that the world had never seen. She is just drop dead gorgeous.
These are just few aspects in her that define her beauty. Aspects which ultimately turned my world upside down the very day I saw her. The day I told myself that I saw heaven here on earth. The day I fell in love with a Goddess.
So tell me am I lucky or what? Envy me because the most beautiful being here on earth happens to be my girlfriend and she loves me
And as a person of great knowledge to the subject, I developed my criteria of beauty but looking at the most beautiful lady, for ME, in the world, my beloved girlfriend, JT. First things first, let me start this study of mine by describing how I met my beautiful JT. It all started on a fateful day (just exaggerating) in the office. It was my second day in Manila when I saw her awe inspiring beauty. In an instant I was stuck and I could not forget and get her image off my mind. She was stunningly and out of this world beautiful. And since then I became a slave for her beauty.
Let me now enumerate those qualities she possesses that make her "the most beautiful in the world".
Personality – she has this personality that people tends to gravitate towards her. She has this very likeable aura that you just can't resist. Sometimes I think she speaks in a language that connects directly to the hearts of people around her. She can command an audience and you just can't resist listening to whatever she's going to say. When she speaks the world stops and listens to her.
There are 3 types of Beauty.
· Cuteness – she's one of the perfect example of this. She owns the face of an angel, melts your heart each time you look at her. She has this sweet innocence in her that you just can't deny. At any situation and in any place, she just looks good. "Baby face", that's the way that I can describe it. Her charm is very undeniable. I just can't resist her she captured me. She has very cute hands. I would never forget the day I first held it. We were sitting in a bus and I just can't control the urge to hold her hands. I asked her if I can hold her hands because it was small. But the truth is I just wanted to hold her cute little hands. I got her that time. She also has cute baby fats in her. Lucky for me I get to touch them. The fats in her tummy are just like marsh mallows from heaven. So smooth and so fragile. And her nose, oh her nose, so cute you just want to pinch it. She also has these cute little ears. Those sparkling eyes of her are just so amazing. Feels like she sees right through me. The hair, long, shiny and radiantly black. It also smells so good. Her cheeks reminds of the paintings during the renaissance. You should see her cheeks when she's blushing. And the smile that completes my day.
· Prettiness –prettiness is associated with romantic love and natural feministic qualities. Romantic love? I love her, so she fits. Natural feministic qualities, actually she a little rough than a lady with great poise but ironically that's what makes her so feminine. She maybe wild and rough on the outside but she definitely is a strong and powerful lady on the inside. Ever heard of a song from Billy Joel, "She's Always a Woman"? Basically it describes JT very well; she will always be a woman to me. She bears herself well and she commands respect. She may not wear elegant dresses or fashionable clothes but she still carries with her the composure of a beauty queen.
· Hotness – is the beauty that stimulates sexual desire. According to one article is the type of beauty where the celebrities can be associated with. In short, JT can become a celebrity anytime she wants. She is the epitome of hotness is its raw form. She has the body to die for. Those sexy hips, I really can't describe them. Very soft and smooth skin, more priceless than the porcelain of ancient China. If you're a girl you'd envy her and if you're a man it will stimulate all your sensual fantasies. I don't want to express my fantasies, she might kill me if I do but I'm guilty nonetheless. She has these luscious lips. Makes me want to kiss them every time I had the chance. Oh, the taste is even better I tell you. I've tasted other lips but nothing really compares to sensation of being kissed by my JT. Boobs can become the make or break part of a woman. Mostly guys like girls with big hooters. Hey, I'm not making this up, it is based on research. For JT, ummmm, just judge for yourself. I love my JT. She even had the voice to back it up. Her voice is just the sexiest that I have ever heard. I don't want to emphasize further, this might lead to censored things. I don't want to extend the explanation for this type of beauty. I could go on and on describing how hot and sexy my girlfriend is. I still haven't mention the time when we were on an outing. We were in a pool, my jaw literally drop when I saw her wet in those short shorts and tight blouse of hers. But enough with that, I might not post this at all, I might open up some secrets not to mention my wildest dreams about her.
Overlapping- sometimes type of beauty overlapped each other that you create a new kind of beauty. These are the combinations:
· Exotic Beauty – Hotness + Prettiness
· Exquisite Beauty – Prettiness + Cuteness
· Enchanting Beauty – Cuteness + Hotness
· Goddess Beauty – this category is indeed very rare. You're lucky to have gotten two types of beauty and an amazing feat to possess all of them. But believe me, I have seen a person who possesses them and she's my one and only JT. A sweet and innocent face, the poise and bearing, and the sexiness that the world had never seen. She is just drop dead gorgeous.
These are just few aspects in her that define her beauty. Aspects which ultimately turned my world upside down the very day I saw her. The day I told myself that I saw heaven here on earth. The day I fell in love with a Goddess.
So tell me am I lucky or what? Envy me because the most beautiful being here on earth happens to be my girlfriend and she loves me
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